sarahs blog: December 2011

Odd One Out. A poem written by Sarah Edwards.

Why oh why are we odd ones out,
Night after night, I dream of more,
Time and time again, I say to myself,
The longing,wanting,hurting, feels so sore,
Will it be different for us,
No, I don’t seem to think,
Friends,family don’t understand,
Our feelings, our yearnings, our hopes and dreams.
Oh, there she is, the barren one,
Nothing can fill this empty space,
In my hearts desire, this tragic place,
In enters the stress, failure and desperation.
Just the same, month in, month out,
Soon the years begin to race by,
Why us, why me, why not one day,
Whatever did we do wrong to live this way.
Children laughing, playing, having fun,
Sounds of happiness and joy,
But here, there is just frozen silence,
For ever, feeling the pain inside,
People think in family ways, planning this and that,
Days out at the zoo, picnics and the seaside,
Bucket and spades, sand in your shoes,
We would love this, if only God would choose.
Empty homes, empty rooms, empty wombs,
Just us two, as one, as ever before,
Don’t get me wrong, the strong love is there,
Will always be, I will love you ever more,
Friends, colleagues,neighbours, forget you have none,
Just everyday planning of family fun,
This is all so easy and normal for you,
Then why oh why, cant we share it too…

Friday, 30 December 2011

Goodbye 2011, hello 2012

Well 2011 is nearly over, thankfully, not been the best year for me healthwise. Looks like the start of 2012 will be much the same, hopefully as the new year progresses it will get better.

Thank you to everyone who has supported me through me moaning about all my pain. YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE, it means a lot and kept me going at some low points, i am not feeling good now, emotionally and physically, but, hey ho.And to the ones who havent shown any compassion well, they know who they are too....
Most of all to Ian who has been my rock. xx
So pleased to have been getting messages today from a special person back with us. ♥
Sorry if ive gone on a bit...xx

Happy New year to you all. xx

Saturday, 10 December 2011

Dreams

It's frustrating to watch everyone else's dreams come true while knowing your own are slipping farther and farther away from becoming reality...

Christmas is coming

Well its that time of the year again when families come together, children get excited.
Sadly not for us, ive found out this week 3 of our FB friends are pregnant. I am so pleased for them, so dont think im selfish at all.I wish them all the very best.Its just this time of year gets me depressed at times, thinking what we will never have. xx

Sunday, 4 December 2011

My poem Odd One Out

Dont forget to check out my poem on here further down my blog page.

Its called Odd One Out..

Bloomin drugs

Ive been reading about the hormone im being injected with every month. The one i take is also given to men with the later stage of prostate cancer, so imagine what it does to us, no wonder there are so many side effects. I have read somewhere about it which has compared the drug alongside chemo drugs.